One thing I have always struggled with is loving myself. It’s not easy in this society that feeds you with what the media portrays as ‘beautiful’ to which you then constantly find yourself comparing yourself against. How often do you go on social media and see all these amazing posts, of beautiful people, expensive lifestyles and experiences, before and after pictures of people’s ‘glow ups’ and then come off feeling motivated?
Rarely to almost never, right?
Don’t worry you’re not alone and the funny thing is that majority of people that display these lifestyles online, don’t actually live it in the real world nor do they actually look like their pictures. Nothing but smoke and mirrors, lighting and camera angles, and a whole heap of editing. Snapchat even got us out here feeling like we can’t take a normal picture without a filter.
Then you’re constantly thinking, ‘Oh, if I only had the body I always wanted or the car I really want, i’ll be happy with myself’, but those things rarely fill the void that you feel inside, that constant state of being unhappy and putting on a front so that people make assumptions off your life based on what you put out there for them to judge.
& believe me, I thought oh when I’m a homeowner, I’ll be a BOSS, irresistible to all those that meet me, it made me happy for a while but that soon faded. Then I was like…nahh duhh it’s cz I don’t have the car init, then i’ll feel like the BADDEST BOSS. I got the car and it made me happy for while but that novelty soon wore off…sound familiar?
Now when people see me they think, ‘dayuum V gots its madeee, I see you boo…i’m tryna be like you’, and for a moment you feel gassed, then you get in your new car, drive to your new house, lock the door and it’s just you, alone, with nothing but your thoughts, silent. Now i’m not trying to sound ungrateful, I appreciate everything that God has given me and that I’ve worked for. But there is still that emptiness inside and i’m sure i’m not alone in tryna fit all the wrong pieces in it, from ‘situationships’ to materialistic objects to other peoples validation and I bet i’m not alone in saying that none of them worked?
God is the answer, my friend. God is the only thing that can fill that void inside you because that void was made for him to live within you and if he’s not part of your life that void will always be there. It’s almost like you creating a robot that is self sufficient to a certain extent but when you hook it up to your computer you can programme it, fix any bugs, update its software and charge it to its maximum potential. That’s exactly what we get when we connect with God, it’s like he sticks his USB in that void we have and downloads all the latest updates and software patches, but when we don’t give him permissions to do so, we deny him access and then end up getting a whole heap of viruses and trying to stick a Samsung charger in an iPhone – it’s not gunna work. But fear not God is the ANTI-VIRUS (subscription free ;)). You think that God would have created us and just left us to our own devices, ehh nah!
So what you waiting for sis, download your latest updates directly from the source, feel whole again, he’s just one prayer away.
Love Always,
